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24 April 2004 @ 09:29 pm
i think im the lonleist i have ever been in my life
thats really really not good
i wish some one would call me instead of me always having to call every one i guess all the times i have called people in my life has amounted to jack shit i guess
im realy not a happy person one month and 12 days in to my 25th year
i dont know if this music is good for me right now
but um ok what am i doing nothing what else i dont know
fuck will some one please wake me up from this rut
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
Current Music: pedro the lion
30 March 2004 @ 09:20 pm
not much to say but im tierd i dont know why and i died my hair red i dont know why i need to call jessica ok bye
13 March 2004 @ 02:25 am
god help me
11 March 2004 @ 10:49 pm
not much going on to day im going to go to bed now
11 March 2004 @ 01:26 am
also i got a new tattoo its a heart with a paint brush going through it and a banner with mommy on it it also has panzys on it sorry my spelling sucks to day and i dont care to fix it but any way its on my left wrist i love it i told my mom about it and it made her so happy she said i was so cute and thanked me i thought that was so cool of her i love my mom
11 March 2004 @ 01:05 am
i guess its the 11th 1 day till im 25
its a bit fucked up i dont know what to think about this hum
just let it pass i think big things are going to start happening
ive been painting for 3 days 6 paintings finished and 4 almost finished paintings there not good or any thing stupid shit but atlest im doing it i cant seem to stop
i give it a week then ill start doing something else thats how it always works
cathy went to tusonyesterday she should be back to day some time i was saposed to go but she disinvited me blah blah blah
"its not personal or any thing"
what ever its been nice having the house to my self i can do the things freely what else i have a lot of stuff going for me now i just need to get my web site going
to bad i lost my dig. camera last weekend it may be at my work but i dont think so
i think some one stoll it from johns bday party
but any way yeah things are odd and im sad havent talked to jess in so long my cell got turned off and i cant take care of that till tuesday im broke cant even do any thing for my bday some one has to take me out though ill go crazy if not nothing worse than feelinf alone on your bday ok im geting sad now thats not good so im going to go and do some thing like sleep paint or maybe reed ill fig. it out ok thats it thats it thats itbye bye
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: padro the lion
04 March 2004 @ 02:34 pm
hello its been a long time a very long time
not much is going on im not in school all i can say is it sucks and i miss it so much and cathy is living with me all i can say is i just dont know whats going on
my life basicly i dont know sort of sucks but may be not im in limbo i guess
its a very gross day i wish the sun would come out
my feet are fucking cold im going to go look around i think just thought i woould say hi
Current Music: that dog
16 September 2003 @ 02:34 pm
ihavesomuch to do and somany things i want to do ssleep is one big one
i got a kitten 2 weeks ago i shouldnt have but rum seemed so sad all the time
shes 7 weeks old and dark gray i named her violet because the first week i had her
her eyes were violet she is so so so so cute but she wont let me sleep or read or do any thing that dosnt consern her its geting better though rum has started playing with her and shes calmed down
the past 2 nights i have found her underneth my neck it freeks me out alittle cus it looks like shes dead but noshes not shes just an odd little kitten
Current Mood: goodgood
15 September 2003 @ 08:56 am
i guess im bord of this maybe when i get my computer ill write more bye bye
Current Mood: busybusy
08 September 2003 @ 02:09 pm
i dont like the new set up
i dodnt i dont i dont
ok i have to go maybe soon i will be able to write some thing new